stress and harry potter

Between work and my new apartment, I’ve been really stressed this week. I am SO glad tomorrow/today is Friday.

I will start out my day at a coffee shop, deciding the entrepreneurial fate of at least 15 applicants and organizations. It’s what I do (aka. my job). Then I will show up at work around 12:30pm, faced with a messy desk (papers everywhere) and hopefully no more than 10 emails in both inboxes. I will spend a lot of time talking to Peter and Adam on gchat, but I will also find time to get my work done – the part that doesn’t involve reading fellowship applications. Around 5pm, I will be ready to leave work, but I might not actually leave until 6:30ish. What I will do after work is a mystery.

Oh. My. Gosh. I’m putting myself to sleep by just writing this boring boring post. Ha.

On a good note: I’m going to see Equus on Sunday with Adam and Ryan.

That’s right – I’m going to see the Harry Potter (except he’s not Harry Potter). In-Person. I know you all are jealous, and you should be. It will be exciting.

oh geez

Work is so, so, so, so challenging right now. It’s not that my tasks are difficult – I just have a lot of them to do, and they all hold the same priority level.

wtf. I am only ONE PERSON.

This afternoon, after a meeting with my boss about the skills at Excel and Access that I don’t possess, my brain was fried. It took me a good 15 minutes before I could really think about what just happened.

I can feel my body wanting to fall apart right now. My head is overflowing with my daily tasks and how I don’t have the time to get everything done, and at times I become so flustered I lose myself in those thoughts. Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoy my job, but I feel like I’m carrying a ginormous load. Aside from the AP Calculus exam I took as a high school senior, this might be the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life.

So, I may want to fall apart, but I absolutely refuse to allow that to happen. Is it better to have: a) a boring job that never challenges you and you never grow as an employee, or b) one where you’re constantly being pushed and your limits are tested, and you develop valuable skills that you can carry on to future job positions? I think I’d rather have option b. It almost hurts me to say that, but “no pain, no gain” totally applies in this situation. I WILL get through this insanity – I just need to believe it. I cannot crash and burn.

PS: is there a “Prioritizing for Dummies” book available? I think I need one of those.

PPS: I so badly need a vacation. October 23rd is my salvation.

Dear Blog,

It’s that time of year again. Finals, sorta. Well, final papers. I have a take-home final in one of my econ classes due today, but after that I have 4 papers to write (as you probably know). Thus, I will have to take a break from writing in here. For now, I need to devote all of my writing efforts to Colombia’s economy, Brazilian inequality, Hate Crime Legislation and Guatemala’s inequality and economic development. It won’t be fun and I will miss writing in here. Hopefully I’ll be alive in a couple of weeks to talk about it.

Love,

Deva